Go check out my guest post on Modern Mormon Men. It’s a great website and I’ve very pleased to be on it.
I’ve taken a long break from posting anything here. For a while now I’ve wondered whether what I do on Tumblr, or Facebook, or wherever, really means anything. 1. Is a virtual relationship real? 2. Can it be sustained?
Frankly, I want friends. I want to meet you people and talk and debate and laugh. I write and I read and I ask questions and I answer questions, and it’s all very abstract.
I just posted an article I’ve been stewing over for quite some time. I don’t know how much I agree with it. I wrote it at a time when I was feeling provocative. Enjoy.
We sat in silence. My psychologist was not writing anymore, his hands folded neatly on his lap. He stared at me, breathing slowly, unable to speak. For months I had been meeting with him to discuss my crisis of faith in the LDS Church and the growing divide between myself and my wife, which had recently brought us to the brink of divorce. For months we had worked together, my psychologist and I, trying to to find a middle ground, a workable solution to these divisive tensions within me. Maybe I needed a new profession in academia, a place to vent my intellectual steam in ways not related to the Church. Maybe I needed to move to a more liberal city, where I wouldn’t feel so alone in my Ward. The other option, one which we were loathe to even mention, though it screamed silently from my falling tears and wringing hands, was the possibility that I needed to leave my wife and the Church, and pursue my intellectual interests without fear or compromise.